jojomonster

So its almost the count down to Saboten 2009. Where I'll be a guest of honor along with David Doub the writer/creator of "Dusk" a book I worked on last year. I will also be featured in a few panels at the con so if youre going to be there please come by my table or one of the panels to chat about crazy things and slaying zombies. :) I will also be taking Commissions at the con as well as be selling the Dusk Special edition issue for $3!  

Well I leave in an hour to pick up the car and drive with Corey to SD. :D Im so excited this is the first year Im actually taking my portfolio!! 
Lets hope good things happen!

So This weekend I had a few melt downs, and i decided that i needed to go check myself back in the crazy catagory of life (where I dont belong), all until I was refocsing myself on sunday and while I was cleaning my room, I found a journal I had been writing the morning gratitude entries and such, the last entry was the 19th of July and it was a half assed one. Since then my world got turned upside down had a horrible week and such. Well this week I turned things around started writing in my dairy again, started being thankful again put up my vision board. Decided the real reason why I havent gotten a single call about jobs is because Dusk isnt finished and I secretly dont want a job till its finished. And Ive came up with a wonderful even workable plan to get Dusk finished the week before school starts.
And Im not the kind of person thats "blown away" by most peoples looks. Im kind of snobby when it comes to people that I guess that shock and awe me. Well I went to the bank today to get my savings account put on my debit card and I got this tellar named Ryan. Wow.. No one has blown me away like that since Joshua or Adam. And wow.. I got all stupid too. it was funny.
And apparently I have to go back because my mom needs to sign some thing or whatever and i told my mom about him and shes like "oh youve never met him. he plays rugby and stuff.. I should introduce you two"

And the other weird thing is on the dating site Ive been on for the past oh what 5 years now, I usually get around 3-5 new emails a day. And its really easy for me to gets date.. I mean stupid easy.
And well the last week and a half or more Im lucky if I get one or two emails a week. Even when I email people I'll get a response then I respond back setting something up or just chatting and theres no response back. Its the weirdest thing. Im wondering if its just the economy or something like that or something else entirely.

Who knows all I know is Its time for me to overhaul this DUSK page and keep on my schedual.

So.. I get these horrible mood swings. I mean horrible I will be happy and helpful one minute then be extremely irratable and screamy the next. then apologize the next. then get angry again. Its really destroying my relationship with my family. Especially my parents and sister. And saturday is one of my sisters babyshowers (shes having one here in az and one in ca). Ive been on anti depressants, mood swing meds, and other such t hings, im on birth control which should help but nothing does. Im at my ropes end again. . . i know i said this at the beggining of this month.. im just scared right now.. i dont want to lose my family because of my crazyness.

i got bored and did a rouge inspired streak in my hair.. so far my mom hates it...

i think it makes me look cool dur hur

So like everything else in life when we're trying to change a habit that we've had for YEARS.. (this habit formed probably when I was 12 or so) And its really really hard to break it.. But I know it will take time, and it will get eaiser, this is only the first week. Right now its just slightly hard to keep my hopes up when day in and day out its the same thing but then again I should be very thankful for this situation I am it is allowing me to work on Dusk and complete it on time like I originally planned. I will get a job at a later day right now Ive got bigger fishies to fry. Im also going to get back on top of the working out routine, Im feeling "heavy" lately. It could be because I ate a huge burger when I wasnt hungry...
Anyways Right now its getting eaiser to spot the negativity in the things i say and think and as well as others. I went on a date last night and this guy all he could do was complain about his work, the state of Arizona, the polution, and everything under the sun. It completely turned me off of want to even want to speak with him again. I mean it wasnt unbearable Ive been on way worse dates.
Anyways im off to complete my Dusk goal for the day

So since a new friend of mine Jax and I have been chatting on aim, Ive decided to make my first post about this topic.
On monday I started the slowly incorporate "the law of attraction" and positive and true happiness into my heart as well as mind. I think back to times in my life where all that happened was bad and more bad and I seemed to have a horrible strain of bad luck. Well I never really was much of the most positive person in my own mind. Id pick fights with my family, say mean and hateful things, be jealous, and it just felt so wicked. Im leaving that person behind and starting a new life right now. A postive one. I remeber thinking that to be a postive person it meant you were weak and didnt want to accept the truths and hardships of life. Now I see that its not so it is so much easier to be negative and down on yourself. It takes a much stronger person to look in the brighter side of things. Like my dads always told me I always took the easy way out on things. Its true. I have. Ive been very lazy and lacking of faith in myself.
So Im going to be posting the new events of my life. I am truly greatful for everything I have. I am truly blessed.

Well way back in 1997ish is when I first saw his work on Witchblade. I was automatically a fan. He was pretty much the main reason why I got into American Comics in Highschool..
He died last night from a long (about 8 year) battle with cancer and died at the way too young age of 37..

Rest in peace Mike. We are all going to miss you.

ok ive been up since 1:30... i have work today... and this is what i do with my insominatic state...

XD MIAKA CRAPTATSTIC TEST PICZ zomgz im a tard

so...ive been watching alot of anime lately.. ok.. ive been actually watching anime.. and its making me want to cosplay..
especially after seeing Sam/Tasu's FY group photos.. makes me want to make a miaka costume..

so i want to start watching anime again.... anyone want to recommend some good ones?

Okay so im in need of some good ol fun on the town. Maybe do it this weekend?

Who wants to join me?

So lately my life has been okay. I guess. Ive just been drawing on dusk, working out, spending time with a boyfriend that Im not very enthusiastic about having.. :( and I got a new job that I start monday. I will be working in a Dr.s office doing back office medical work which is taking patients to thier rooms and writing stuff on a chart as well as helping the dr with the patients.
Its cool i get to wear scrubs and i got a whole dollar raise..wooo $11 an hour. Its funny thought I have no medical experience and I think he hired me just because of my looks and personality..

And I want to hang out with someone thats not the boring bf. seriously.. comment and i'll give out my number so we can hang out and go see a movie or stuff like that.

I'll be beautiful

Well im on the market again.


who wants to go on a date with me? :D

Im officially the pencillist thats going to finish drawing up the last chapter of this graphic novel..

http://dusk.ambrosiapublishing.com/

We're hoping this will be out by late this year.

Well, Its over and done with.. Phoenix comic con was my first convention that I had a table at. And I have to say It was a lot of fun. I had more fun at this con than I have had in a very long time. I made about $178.00 so I managed to make back what I paid for the table plus some. Which made me a very happy camper. I was seriously just happy if I sold one thing.
Anyways I really need to do that again. :) Hope everyone who went had fun.

for all you guys going to PCC and preview night I will be there locating where my table will be at in the artist alley then going to an expensive ass dinner.
So if i dont see ya'll tonight see you guys this weekend. :)

I think i should draw some HP fanart and make up some prints for the show... hm..

ok im going to spam you guys some more with my drawins'




yeah... only two...still working on trying to draw hawt guys